So I am not connected to any Social Media anymore. It just isn’t worth my sanity at this point and time. I’m not at a stable place where I can see things objectively. It’s all or nothing. I get hyperfocused on people, places, and things.
I am being weaned off of Viibryd right now. I have gone from 40mg to 20mg. I’ll do this for a week then go to 10mg. This is so I can try Brintellix. At this point I’m wondering if I should have sucked it up and done ECT again. The withdrawal is horrendous. I want to crawl out of my skin, I’m agitated, having crying spells, scared, panic attacks, muscles hurt, insomnia, itchy, a feeling of impending doom. It’s killing me. I wish my Dr. had upped my klonopin just to get through this. My poor dad was in tears because I’m on the bathroom floor rocking back and forth crying hysterically while talking to myself. He never cries and I HATE that I’m the reason. Forget about my sister. She sent a text saying she was here for me except on weekends and then listed all these other times and days too. So pretty much that means she isn’t there for me. Not surprised. Sick of it but not surprised. I’ve given up trying with her. I’ll have to find another way. The info on the med scares me but there is nothing left to try. So I will push through it.