I can only relay what I have experienced with my diagnosis of Bipolar Disorder and Alcoholism. I can also tell you what I HAVE NOT experienced because of Bipolar Disorder and Alcoholism.
My health is a little up in the air right now. It’s reached the point where I think of the things I’ve never done. Things that I would like to before I can’t.
To be touched by a man that loves me without violence or alcohol.
I’ve never had that.
To be kissed by a sober man or even hold hands with one while I am also sober.
I’ve never done that.
To travel by myself somewhere warm and just breathe.
To have happiness for longer than a week.
For people to see me as I really am. Or to be seen at all.
To be able to make friends easily to ease the loneliness.
These are not huge things but to me they are. I still work on them but feel time is running out. Some things I’ll have to accept won’t happen. That’s ok. As long as I am me and not pretending to be someone else.