Bipolar Medications & Being A Lab Rat

How many people have had bad experiences with their medications only to be told by their Doctor that it COULDN’T POSSIBLY be their meds?

It happens to me often. Around the third time of me saying it, a light bulb goes on in the same Doctor’s eyes and he agrees with me. Why do I have to suffer for almost a year before they believe me?

I think that Topamax isn’t doing me any favors. It’s making me cry and making me cranky. Even with Adderall  I just want to sleep. I think everything I do is wrong. My sister and ex sister in law keep saying I need to “be somewhere”. Where the hell do they think that “somewhere” is exactly? They don’t want to say it but they mean a hospital. Neither one of them have ever been so it’s easy for them to say. It isn’t like going to Club Med for a few relaxing weeks of fun in the sun where we make S’mores and baskets. Idiots. I’m extremely touchy about the situation because I’ve been more than once. None of my experiences were pleasant and I also didn’t receive any kind of help. So now I hide in my room and cry.

About darie73

I have lived with Bipolar Disorder since my early teens. I have lived with Social Anxiety Disorder for even longer. I self-medicated with alcohol for over 20 years, that's how long it took to get a diagnosis. I'm open and honest about my mental health so hopefully one day the system will change. View all posts by darie73

3 responses to “Bipolar Medications & Being A Lab Rat

  • Pieces of Bipolar

    I’ve also had bad hospital experiences so can relate to your reluctance. If your symptoms are so variable each day, it sounds like you need to see your doc. Or a new doc if you feel he doesn’t listen to you. I’m sorry you are forced to hide out in your room and are so weepy. Sending you loads of ((hugs))

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    • darie73

      Thank you! It’s sad when you’ve already seen the best doctors your state has to offer. They just can’t see the problem as whole. The fact that I only have one kidney now plays a huge factor but he insists it doesn’t. I only started having problems when I lost my right kidney function. It’s frustrating when the doctors assume you don’t know what you are talking about.

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    • Pieces of Bipolar

      I agree. No one knows you body better than you


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