Everyday I look at my E-mail and Spam and clear out the junk.

No big deal right? Wrong!

When my sister and I were born my mother didn’t know she was having twins. She wasn’t ready with names. She really wasn’t ready with anything. She had been told she would have to have a hysterectomy soon after our birth because she had cervical cancer. She also had a 7 year old boy at home still adjusting to a new step-father.

My mom did the best she could. My sister was named after the female nurse Deborah. I was named after a male actor in horror movies, Dana. Dana was mostly a male name in the 50’s, 60’s, and 70’s.

80% of my junk mail is address to Mr. Dana ….. I receive about 70 Spam E-mails a day. 68 of them are for some form of Viagra. The other 2 are solicitations from “sexy, hot, women in my neighborhood”.

In case I forgot to tell you, I am a 43 year old single woman. I am 5’6″ tall, I have blue eyes and red hair. The shade of red depends on the season. I have been told I have a nice smile. I am 14o pounds and I don’t mind saying that because I was 270. I do mind receiving all this crap for men to have sex and get women.

People can do what they want with their lives as long as they don’t hurt others. I’m probably envious because I have problems leaving my house and being in social situations. Which is why I have been alone for over 8 years and don’t see that changing anytime soon.

My friend W says “Daner you’re not going to get a knock on your door one day with some guy on the other side who’s going to save you”.

She’s right.


About darie73

I have lived with Bipolar Disorder since my early teens. I have lived with Social Anxiety Disorder for even longer. I self-medicated with alcohol for over 20 years, that's how long it took to get a diagnosis. I'm open and honest about my mental health so hopefully one day the system will change. View all posts by darie73

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