I like statistics and research but it’s hard to see some numbers when they are not changing much year after year. It’s even harder knowing that not much is being done about it. Here is some of the newest information and you can decide for yourself.

  • Approximately 1 in 5 adults experiences mental illness in a given year.
  • 1 in 25 adults experiences serious mental illness in a given year that interferes with or limits 1 or more major live activities.
  • 1.1% of adults live with Schizophrenia.
  • 2.6% live with Bipolar Disorder.
  • 6.9% had at least 1 major depressive episode in the past year.
  • 18.1% experienced an anxiety disorder such as PTSD, OCD, and specific phobias.
  • Among the 20.2 million adults who experience a substance abuse disorder 50.5% had a co-occurring mental illness.
  • Half of all chronic mental illness begins by age 14.
  • Despite effective treatment there are long delays, sometimes decades, between the first signs of symptoms and a diagnosis.
  • People living with serious mental illness face an increased risk of chronic medical conditions.
  • People with serious mental illness die on average 25 years earlier than other people.
  • More than 90% of children who die by suicide have a mental health condition.
  • Each day an average of 18-22 veterans die by suicide because they don’t get the help they need.

This is a report sent to the government every year. Every year nothing changes. I’m one person with limited time left to change things. I don’t have the energy to change my socks. I have severe chronic medical conditions that interfere with my mental health.

Last night I received a phone call about my student loan. I started crying on the phone. I was babbling and stuttering. At one point I said “My dad is worried right now he won’t have the money to bury me so how can I pay you?”. The thing is the loan isn’t supposed to be there. If something happened where you went on Disability after school and didn’t even get a chance to really use what you learned they are supposed to “forgive” the loan. But only if the paper from Disability says when your next review is.

I’ve asked Disability to send me the paper 4 times. Each time I get the same one saying that I’m on Permanent Disability but there is no mention of a review so they won’t except it. I get frustrated when the loan people call because I can’t understand why they won’t take it. I told them I’m sick enough that I don’t need a review! I won’t be getting better only worse. That’s why they won’t put a review date on there.

I’m at a point where I don’t care. One of my birds is dying and we’ve had her for over 20 years, my Pomeranian won’t be here much longer she’s 14 and has had epilepsy since she was 3. My dad’s health is getting worse, he looks like skeleton and I don’t want to be the one who finds him. I don’t want to watch another parent die. It’s too much. I can’t do it. We fight sometimes now because we’re both sick but before that we were like best friends. We would go to the movies together, do anything that involved animals together, watch TV together and laugh, he kept me sober for the first 5 years by being there. He’s always been there. Mentally I know it will break me.

It’s why I want to move to Florida or at least spend a few months out of the year there. If only everything wasn’t about money. My sister acted excited about the new jewelry I’ve been making and said she wanted to help with marketing. Of course I can’t get in touch with her now or when I do she’s too tired to talk. She’s the best salesperson I know and has a friend who owns a boutique and likes my jewelry. I’m being selfish. She probably is tired. I’m just confused and scared.

About darie73

I have lived with Bipolar Disorder since my early teens. I have lived with Social Anxiety Disorder for even longer. I self-medicated with alcohol for over 20 years, that's how long it took to get a diagnosis. I'm open and honest about my mental health so hopefully one day the system will change. View all posts by darie73


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