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Living with the negativity of Bipolar Disorder and other health problems, I try to find happiness where I can. It’s usually the smallest of things that make me smile.

When my box arrives from the company Birchbox it’s a little like Christmas. It’s filled with the newest, most expensive, hair, make-up, and perfume samples. You pay $10/month for 1 box per month. The sample sizes are usually large. I’ve had some last up to¬† 6 months. I do have an obsession with products.

I also have an obsession with pens, colored pencils, watches, large statement earrings, flat irons, hair color, obscure boutique shops and gifts, Adult Coloring, Wildlife, and all kinds of subjects that no one else cares about. Example: The History of Russian Prison Tattoos is fascinating. One of my favorite movies is Eastern Promises, I’ve seen it several times. A naked Viggo doesn’t hurt either.

I bring this up because I actually left the house for the first time in more than a week. In case you don’t know, I do not understand how to handle a compliment. I’m working on it. But I was proud of myself this time. Four strangers complimented me on my hair. The color and the cut. I did both. I created the color and the cut. My eyes help. The color of my hair make my eyes appear a more turquoise blue. I still have a hard time accepting praise but when it’s something I’ve created it’s a little easier. My hair is Cherry Cola, the cut is Back to the 90’s, I cut it after I blow dry it then flat iron it so I can see the direction my hair grows. This is helpful because I have a cowlick in the front. lol

Looks like I’ll need all the help I can get. My dad’s visit with the doctor didn’t go well and he’s been lying about having money to pay bills. Ughhh!!! If you can answer this question correctly you win a free reading of my blog. Did my sister answer her phone? lol




5 Ingredient Gluten Free Peanut Butter Cookies



If I had known about this recipe when I was younger I probably would have weighed more than 270 pounds. My brain never recognized the word “moderation” in anything I did. But I love baking, I find it comforting. My mother who was an excellent cook never baked. My mom bought all of our cakes, cookies, pies, etc. Unfortunately she didn’t know “moderation” either.

This is a kick ass recipe. Everyone’s oven varies. These are better if cooked a little longer. You want them on the crisper side to taste good. Because you’re not using flour the longer cooking time makes them less play dough like. You’ll see when you make them. If done correctly they are perfect.


  • 1 Cup Peanut Butter
  • 1 Cup Sugar (I do half white & half brown)
  • 1 Egg
  • 1 Tsp. Vanilla
  • 1 Tsp. Baking Soda

Heat oven to 350 degrees.

Hand mix all ingredients. You’ll need your muscles here. I use an ice cream scoop or small melon baller for the cookie dough. I roll them into a ball an place on a non stick cookie sheet. After I go back and do the criss cross fork marks. These cookies won’t expand as much as you’re used to.

Bake for about 10 minutes. Let cool for about 30 minutes. lol I never do. I’ve been known to put cookie sheets in the freezer for a few minutes so I can eat them faster. I don’t recommend it. It could ruin your freezer or pan. This just shows how bad I am with sweet stuff.

And Now Something Fun

We all have different ways of coping with everyday stress and Bipolar Episodes. Some find counseling, group therapy, one on one therapy, yoga, etc., etc., to be helpful. I find keeping my mind occupied helps. I try photography and I make jewelry. These things make me happy. I get lost in the details and the artistry so I don’t have room to think about anything else. For me this helps. It doesn’t mean it’s the right way to deal with things but it’s the way that works for me after trying everything else. I don’t know if it’s healthy or not. I keep getting pressured to go to therapy. Not by my Doctor but my sister. She doesn’t understand how many I’ve been to and how many bad experiences I’ve had. I’ve decided it isn’t my job to convince her. If she can’t accept my decision than too bad. Someday I’ll find the right person, until then it’s photography and jewelry.DSC01268 (2)DSC01270 (3)DSC01271 (3)DSC01275DSC01274DSC01269

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